Gobind Sadan
God's house Without Walls

Pain Unwinding-Tim Cook

Tim Cook, a very popular Christian minister from Texas who with his wife Barbara founded The Church of Conscious Harmony, met Babaji years ago and has been very inspired by him in his ministry. Tim appealed for help to Gobind Sadan on June 15, 2005, with a phone call and this email:

“I’ve grown desperate and nearly frantic from continuous, unrelenting, often excruciating pain and internal pressure that resulted from an unanticipated arousal of kundalini energy that began after our visit to Gobind Sadan in 1988. When we returned home, I began sitting in meditation from 6 to 8 hours each day. My back began to have painful spasms that were magnified when they hit the regions of my neck where I had spinal fusions earlier in life. I didn’t connect the rise in energy to sitting in meditation at first. Father Thomas Keating was the one who told me, ‘Oh, this is classic kundalini.’

In the 17 years that have followed, I’ve tried various therapies. I get twice weekly acupuncture, herbs, weekly massage, weekly Rolfing. Prescription narcotics work a little sometimes. I am just going off them now because they’ve quit working. I pray for mercy but thus far God has seen fit to leave the pain in place. I know there are people who deal with far more than I do and I am willing to feel like this for the rest of my life if that is his will, and I am certain that if it is to be that way then it is for His glory and a greater good than I can see with my limited vision.

There is, though, progress. My twisted, arthritis distorted, fused spine is being slowly, inexorably straightened by the process. I am not very functional in most of my life, however. I preach, teach, counsel, and that is about it. I am not able to do much else. I can barely crawl across the floor. My faith is being stretched to greater limits than I could ever have imagined.

I need Maharaj’s help with healing or wise counsel on how to deal with this. When I went to the Gobind Sadan website to get your address I ‘randomly’ clicked on the letters section and up came a letter from my friend Elizabeth Fordyce, saying that I was the only person who believed that her hip had been healed at Gobind Sadan. It made both Barb and I cry. It is so clear to me that Maharaj is always and has always been active and at work in my life. Please ask him to pray for me. I need help.”

When this letter was read to Babaji, he gave orders for prayers and candles to be offered on Tim’s behalf at Jesus’ Place, another offering to be made for three days at the havan, and also Hardip should pray for him. When Hardip did so, he sent a message for Tim to wave Chaur Sahib (sacred whisk) over Guru Gobind Singh’s portrait morning and evening, put a kirpan in a glass of water and stir it praising Guru Gobind Singh, and promise to sponsor feeding of sweet rice to the poor in honor of the Prophet Mohammed. Babaji said, “Don’t worry—he’ll be okay.”

On June 16, Tim Cook sent this email message:

“Thank you so much for your touchingly kind caring and assistance. I am deeply moved and amazingly comforted by all of it. There is more light available in my world today than there was at this time yesterday.

I have begun to drink the water blessed by Guru Gobind Singh’s name and stirred with the kirpan. I am eager to sponsor sweet rice for the poor and I am grateful for your blessed sharing on my behalf with Chaur Sahib and Guru Gobind Singh’s picture. I am looking at his picture and a picture of Maharaji as I stir and drink the water.

For the last several weeks the body has been unwinding and being released from the hold of great spiral forms of energy. Since we spoke yesterday and you intervened on my behalf, the process has escalated incredibly and I am already getting some relief from pain and pressure and the body is astonishingly straighter. I am being healed before my own eyes. Words to thank you pale before the great scale of the freedom that God is giving me through the help of my beloved, eternal friends at Gobind Sadan. I have never felt more loved or received so much grace. Thank you, thank you, thank you!”

Again on June 19, Tim wrote:

“The body is continuing to unwind seemingly endless spirals of energy, but it is clearly getting straighter and more fluid by the day. I have no idea how it all works or even how it manages to stay together. It makes snapping, cracking, popping, breaking noises as it unwinds. It might even be fascinating if it weren’t so horrendously uncomfortable. In any event things are much less intense than they were when I phoned and my hope and faith are renewed and deepened.”

On July 11, Tim wrote:

“Liberation continues to pour into my life through Maharaji’s blessed grace. The body continues to open and release more and more each day and the pain levels are still decreasing along with it. After so many years it is a great relief and promises even greater to come.”

On July 26, Tim wrote,

“I thank God every day for Maharaji’s graceful presence in my life.”

On October 27, Tim wrote,

“When you inquired of Maharaji what was going on with me, his reply was ‘Tell him not to worry. He’ll be OK.’ Those words have been like Dumbo’s magic feather to me. I know he knows, and that is all I need to know. I have simply held tight to his words when my body felt anything but OK and things got very crazy.

I withdrew myself from the narcotics that I’ve been taking for the extreme pain but I did it too fast and went into several days of nightmarish/hellish/insanity and pain. SO I had to go back on the drugs but it still took several weeks to get back to some degree of ‘normalcy.’ Now I’m still having to take them but at lower doses and I’m planning another, slower withdrawal. The pain levels had diminished, though.

Meanwhile I was introduced to a pain-relieving machine called Interex 5000 and now I have hours and sometimes even whole days that are mostly pain-free.

I still have tough times, but Maharaj’s words are always with me. I don’t worry. Instead I get valuable lessons in compassion and understanding for drug abusers and what they go through and for folks who suffer without access to any relief at all.

My unbroken history with Maharaji goes back to 1979. When I returned to the US after meeting him I went through some difficult times, so I wrote to Baldev Singh and asked him to ask Babaji to pray for me. I have kept Baldev’s reply in a frame that is next to my desk. I see it virtually every day and Oh, how true, how wonderfully true his words are. That was before I met Barbara, before I went to ministerial school, before any of the amazing and wonderful things I never would have dreamed of that have come to me. I’ve enclosed a scan of it for you to enjoy with me. He knows and I know that he knows and he says don’t worry, and I’m not worried. I am OK.”

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